Friday, February 29, 2008

3 Feet Away

I thought this might shed a little insight into our relationship, and as candid as it may seem, I am thankful that God gave me a wife that completes me to the fullest potential. I hope someone gets a blessing out of this as much as I did. *yes I had her permission to post it* :)

Ted C - Laptop says:

I'm torn
The Lord has answered my prayer, yet I do not deserve it.
Bless says:
?
we never desrve it
Ted C - Laptop says:
It was a HUGE night for my stores
Terry has over $4800, both Full Service and Wadesboro over $3000
I feel bad for not being there.. yet, I do not regret being in church.
Bless says:
you did what God told you to do and He blessed you for it
means your people are doing their job which means you have done your job
that's what it's all about
Ted C - Laptop says:
yeah
Bless says:
sounds easy but it's not always as you know
Ted C - Laptop says:
I have been in a "bubble" for the last few days.
I've felt un-touched by the sermons, yet I have got so much out of them.
Bless says:
well even your singing didnt sound like you were completely in it
Ted C - Laptop says:
Tonight Bro. Arthur put his finger right on the issue when he explained how sometimes God just wants us to DO what he told us to do the last time he talked to us without having to tell us the same thing over and over.
Bless says:
i kept praying for you
very true
someone else preached that before too
Ted C - Laptop says:
Choir said we coldn't have done it better, yet I know i wasn't "on my game"
I pray so much that I will not sing for my own glory, but for His
Bless says:
diane did point out that the sound system on the nursery tv does NOT do yall justice she said she listens to you in the sanctuary and then hears you in the nursery and it doesnt sound right
Ted C - Laptop says:
I'm not upset when i mess up
I know that i did my job and God does the rest
sometimes maybe I just try too hard
Bless says:
yup and others were blessed and that ewaws the whole thing
well this week it just sounded like you werent touched by what you were singing
although on your I shall return it did sound like you were in it
and yes you hit it with the singing because song
but you are right singing for God's glory is the only way and that is what I always pray
that it will glorfiy him
Him
I also pray that you wont mess up in a way that will be a distraction from that
so I keep yall covered in prayer every time
Ted C - Laptop says:
well, that also keeps me humble, which I do not mind at all.
Bless says:
i got alot out of his message last night
granted i felt like alot of it applied to others but there was definitely enough in there for me
tonight i just wondered how long ken and rj were gonna have to hold hands
guess they will never forget mercy and truth now
at least i think it was mercy and truth
Ted C - Laptop says:
It seems that I am already on the "next level" although I pray that He will take me to the next level, it seems that the answer I keep getting is that I need to stay on the one I'm on for now.
Bless says:
then stay humble stay close keep praying keep listening keep being humble jsut keep on keeping on
Ted C - Laptop says:
It's another "wait" test I'm sure, because maybe I'm not Ready for the next leve... and if I'm correct, I know what that level will be.
Bless says:
make sure you are on the right side of the fire
Ted C - Laptop says:
It's like when you know what you have to do, and you WANT to do it ASAP, yet you know you're not ready.
Bless says:
yup im an instant mashed tater person too
then i end up dragging my feet and making excuses when He wants me to move up cuz i keep saying "I can't do that"
I am not ready
etc
i want to make sure what i do is NOT duty but dedication and give Him the glory
and not to seek a pat on the back for all i do
Ted C - Laptop says:
Well, as much as I wanted this revival to be the next stepping stone, it seems it's meant to be a foundation stone, rather than a step.
I'm sure the next step up will come when He thinks I'm ready.
Bless says:
so God wants to keep you grounded and paying attention
or just to be willing
Ted C - Laptop says:
yup, seems that say
Bless says:
what is this next level you think is next?
Ted C - Laptop says:
say/way
Bless says:
i can never imagine the "next" level
just that I want to be closer to Him then I am and yet it scares me sometimes cuz I don't know what that will entail and I catch myself feeling inadequate insetead of remembering that God will take care of it
Ted C - Laptop says:
yet I wish I could get more "emotional" out of it, I'm learning just by watching Bro. Joe and his insight to his own relationship with Christ that everything doesn't have to be emotions to be right.
Bless says:
so often times i chase myself around in circles til I give it all to Him and then im ok
Ted C - Laptop says:
come to think of it. The alters aren't full of crying faces either.
Bless says:
but they are full
people are not just sitting like grave stones in their pews
Ted C - Laptop says:
not as full as I've seen before, and certainly not as much as I'd expect on revival night.
Bless says:
well tomorow night i am really praying for my teenagers that come i really want this to be a catalyst in their lives
either through salvation or through commitment and growth
i have such a burden for these teen agers that used to scare me to death
Ted C - Laptop says:
yup, definitely something to pray about tomorrow
Bless says:
God certainly has changed me in the past year
I am doing things I would have never dreamed or wanted to do
that's why i often remind myself that it's definitely a God thing because left to myself I sure wouldnt be doing it
is God calling you to missions?
Ted C - Laptop says:
He hasn't said yet.
I keep asking him to just call me, but he just wants me to wait.
I find myself moving further away from my job mentally, and in the past it meant I was complacent and lazy.
Bless says:
but you dont have any particular desire for a mission field either?
Ted C - Laptop says:
Now I keep asking myself if it's me or if it's Him
no i don't
Bless says:
it's possible He has something in store for you but maybe not in a way you can imagine
Ted C - Laptop says:
exactly
Bless says:
or maybe He just wants you to stay faithful and dedicated
Ted C - Laptop says:
that's what i'm saying, there IS something,
Bless says:
He normally does things we dont imagine
Ted C - Laptop says:
hehe, what a blog post this would be eh?
I'll have to cut off the first part of teh conversation tho
not sure people would understand "last night" and "get ready"
Bless says:
which reminds me can you put my "heart" on the side bar with the poem so it's always there and then we can post more?
i havent posted because I didnt want my valentine's message to get lost in the buffer
i told dana and she suggested that side bar idea
Ted C - Laptop says:
yeah I can work on it.
I wanted to do a birthday post for Tammy with some old pics, but I haven't had time.
Maybe sunday
Bless says:
but yeh you can put our post edited for content on the blog
gives people an idea of how we communicate by not talking and sitting 3 feet from each other
Ted C - Laptop says:
scary eh?
Bless says:
it works for us
Ted C - Laptop says:
Ready for bed?

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2 comments:

CNA Momma said...

The Lord has really used you to bless a lot of people. I know there are many times I fail God because I am not close to Him and therefore am not a blessing to others. I pray that He will use me in spite of my failures.

Brother Ted said...

One of my weakest areas is when the devil gets me looking at myself and what I cannot do, rather than looking at God and what HE CAN do. I have to remind myself that it's not about me. I find myself praying EVERY time I have to sing that I won't do it for me or my own glory, but for His glory. Only then can he use me to bless others.

When we put Him first, everything else falls into place. You have No idea how much you bless and encourage me. And I thank God for your perseverance in praying for me when I wasn't in church.