Friday, December 30, 2011

2012 Blessing for the New Year

- May you get a clean bill of health from your dentist, gastro-internist, urologist, proctologist, psychiatrist, podiatrist, plumber, and the I.R.S.

- May your hair, teeth, face-lift, abs, and stocks not fall; and may your blood pressure, triglycerides, cholesterol, white blood count, and your mortgage not rise.

- May what you see in the mirror delight you and what others see in you delight them. May someone love you enough to forgive your faults, be blind to your blemishes, and tell the world about your virtues.

- May the telemarketers wait to make their calls until after you finish dinner, may the commercials on TV not be louder than the program you’re watching and may your checkbook and your budget balance, including generous amounts for charity.

- May you remember to say “I love you” at least once a day to your spouse, child, parent and siblings; but not to your secretary, nurse, masseuse, hairdresser, or your tennis instructor.

- May the new year often find you seated around the table with your beloved family or cherished friends. May you find the food better, environment quieter, cost much cheaper, and the pleasure much more fulfilling than anything else you might otherwise be doing.

-borrowed from a local editor

Monday, December 26, 2011

Snapshots of Christmas Memories

This Christmas was chock full of memories. Sometimes, I felt like Mary of old who "kept all these things and pondered them in her heart". I know that was referring to the events around the birth of Jesus, but I like to think that when God gives me snapshots into His plans and workings in our life that we should keep these things and ponder them in our hearts.
Snapshot 1. Ted teaching Cheyenne and Jessica how to make Momma's chocolate covered peanut butter balls

Snapshot 2. Ted wanting Momma's cherry cream pie which I haven't made since Momma showed me how to do it. In turn, I taught Jessica how to do it. (Jess is James' girlfriend). Passing on the family recipes and traditions to the next generation was bittersweet.

Snapshot 3. Ted giving us his Christmas wish list, and God providing the money so that I could make all his wishes come true {yes, that is probably the first time in 20 years this has happened :))) }

Snapshot 4. Ted writing me a love letter in a Christmas card. I cried all over him after I read it. He hadn't written me like that in years, and I have missed it. Not counting the emails we write to each other or the texts. I just missed the pen to paper heart to heart missives.

Snapshot 5. Passing along the love and wisdom and Godly example to the next generation as it was shown me by the loving people God put in my life through the years.

Snapshot 6. Listening as Ted explained the meaning of Christmas, and why we do what we do on this day every year. How precious the birth of God's Son was and how we are not to take it lightly or forget that is the whole reason we give gifts. I remembered just a few short years ago when he wasn't walking with the Lord and giving spiritual lessons to the boys was the farthest thing from his mind. I inwardly rejoiced that my husband was truly the spiritual leader in our home that God had intended all along.

This was the best Christmas in years! Thank you Lord, for all these things to ponder in my heart. Most of all, thank You for the birth of Your Son that made salvation possible to all who will accept it.

Monday, December 19, 2011

10 Free Gifts for the Whole Year

1. The gift of listening.

Try giving this to someone in need. And you must really listen. No interrupting, no daydreaming, no planning your responses. Just listen.

2. The gift of signs of affection…

Be generous with your hugs, kisses and gentle squeezes of the hand. Let these tiny actions demonstrate the love inside of you.

3. The gift of a note…

It can be as simple as “I Love You” or as creative as a sonnet. Put your notes where they will surprise your loved ones.

4. The gift of laughter…

Just cut out a cartoon, save a clever article. Your gift will say, “I love to laugh with you.”

5. The gift of a compliment…

A simple “You look good in blue” or “Good supper” can be of greatest value to those who may feel they are being taken for granted.

6. The gift of a favor…

Help with the dishes, run an errand, etc.

7. The gift of leaving alone…

There are times in our lives when we want nothing better than to be left alone. Become more sensitive to those times and give solitude.

8. The gift of a cheerful disposition…

Try to be cheerful around those you love.

9. The gift of a game…

Offer to play your loved one’s favorite game. Even if you lose, you’ll be a winner.

10. The gift of prayer…

Pray for your loved ones and let them know you pray for them.

Consider this: One of the most important trips a person can make is meeting the other person halfway.

(This was posted in our local paper, but they cited their source as the internet -author unknown.)

Friday, December 16, 2011

Comforting Contemplations

Two years ago today our lives changed abruptly. Our hearts were torn and our prayers were mere sobs. God has given living grace to us just as much as He gives dying grace. This week I have tried to be stoic, I don't know why just didn't want to always cry.
Ted was out of town and traveling back a long distance this morning. I know he knew what day it was, but I am not sure if he realized that to have him out of town just like he was 2 years ago and also driving back at the same time Momma went to Heaven was very unsettling for me. I was so worried he would fall asleep at the wheel or have an accident before he made it home safely. I did not want to say anything to him about his trip or that it was the anniversary of his mother's Homegoing. I went to work today on autopilot. I think being sick with a cold and feeling blah was a blessing in disguise for I was too numb to feel the heartache.
James has his first girlfriend and I do not feel equipped for this. It has made me think back on what it might have been like for Momma all those years ago. She mothered, mentored, and molded me being a model of a virtuous woman who loved her Lord. I miss her comfort and her wisdom, I keep thinking she would know how to handle each situation or at least we would work it out together. I can only hope that I will be the kind of mother in law that she was to me.
So many saints in our church have stepped into glory in the past 2 years and my heart yearns for my turn. Then I think of all the people who won't get to go because they haven't accepted or have outright rejected our Loving Lord. I know I need to stay here until our Lord returns or calls me Home so that I can tell others.
God doesn't make mistakes, and we don't need to know all the answers, but He does send comfort along if we only keep our eyes and hearts open to His gentle care for us.
He has taught me so much in my life, but when He took Momma to be with Him, it allowed me to learn even more intimately about Him and how to grow in ways that I was not before this.
So as I contemplate Momma and all that has happened hurts, and heartache and all I do find comfort.
May the God of all comfort be with you now and forever, Amen!

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Ode to the Season(borrowed)

Twas the month before Christmas

When all through our land,

Not a Christian was praying

Nor taking a stand.

Why the PC Police had taken away

The reason for Christmas - no one could say.

The children were told by their schools not to sing

About Shepherds and Wise Men and Angels and things.

It might hurt people's feelings, the teachers would say

December 25th is just a ' Holiday '.

Yet the shoppers were ready with cash, checks and credit

Pushing folks down to the floor just to get it!

CDs from Madonna, an X BOX, an I-Pod

Something was changing, something quite odd!

Retailers promoted Ramadan and Kwanzaa

In hopes to sell books by Franken & Fonda.

As Targets were hanging their trees upside down

At Lowe's the word Christmas - was no where to be found.

At K-Mart and Staples and Penny's and Sears

You won't hear the word Christmas; it won't touch your ears.

Inclusive, sensitive, Di-ver-si-ty

Are words that were used to intimidate me.

Now Daschle, Now Darden, Now Sharpton, Wolf Blitzen

On Boxer, on Rather, on Kerry, on Clinton !

At the top of the Senate, there arose such a clatter

To eliminate Jesus, in all public matter.

And we spoke not a word, as they took away our faith

Forbidden to speak of salvation and grace

The true Gift of Christmas was exchanged and discarded

The reason for the season, stopped before it started.

So as you celebrate 'Winter Break' under your 'Dream Tree'

Sipping your Starbucks, listen to me.

Choose your words carefully, choose what you say


not Happy Holiday !

Please, all Christians join together and

wish everyone you meet


Christ is The Reason' for the Christ-mas Season!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Annual Lessons

When Momma died near the end of 2009, God showered His grace on us in countless ways. When a precious friend's father died in 2010, I asked God to give her a double portion of that grace to live through the time following her loss. He did just that! Last year was a lesson in God's amazing grace.
This year has been a lesson in trust. Do I really trust Him? I find myself often looking at the collage Ted made of Momma's smiling face and constantly asking God what was His purpose in taking her. I confess that many times I feel like I am complaining to Him because He won't show me the big picture. He hasn't chosen to tell me why she had to die. He just asks me to trust Him that He DOES know what is best for me and my family. Then, Ted's job changed in such a way that he is now gone every week. This hasn't happened in the near 20 years of our marriage. Every-time he leaves I keep telling myself and God that I can handle this. I can be mature about it and not panic. I must tell you that has yet to happen. I can't sleep at night, I get miserable and resentful until he returns. I am not trusting God to keep him or me safe. I don't trust Him to know what is best for us. I am so glad that a few months back God led me to a devotional book written by a very insightful missionary in Spain. He personally gave me the book and I have thanked God ever since. God has used those lessons at the exact time I need them. The underlying theme so far has been trusting God. Now, maybe there are other themes, but that is what God is gently showing me over and over again. Trust Him, simply trust Him.
So, this week when Ted leaves again, I am going to finally try to apply this lesson and trust God and sleep in peace.
If by chance, I get willful and stubborn I know that I have only misery as my reward.
So why in the world am I telling you all of this? Because, this blog is to help others with the lessons God has shown us.
Grace, now trust.... I hope I learn trust before the year is over so that God can move me onto the next annual lesson....I want to keep growing in Him... Do you??!!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Oy! It's October

Time sure does fly, not just since I have last written a family news update, but the whole year has flown on the speedy wings of time. In June, James graduated from high school,in September he started college in Gaffney, SC. He is totally enjoying it and we are thrilled to have found a college so suited for his continuing education. He is finishing his job at World Wide New Testament Baptist Missions and has applied for a job at Walmart Distribution. We are praying that God will direct his employment path.

Justin is progressing in his senior year in high school. He is still seeking God's will for a job and college plans. He still has his learner's permit and yearns to get his driver's licence. He is co- captain on his Sigma team this year with his new cousin, Jordan. They are becoming good friends and work well together.

Ted's job has changed around, and he is now the area supervisor for 5 North Carolina franchise stores. This involves more traveling, as the additional stores are further away. I confess I really struggle with this and am still learning to deal with his out of town trips. We spend as much time together when he is home and value our time and communication even more.
Ted and James went on the mens' fishing trip with the church and really enjoyed their time on the coast.

My job at World Wide New Testament Baptist Missions continues to keep me busy along with teaching the teen class at our church's bus ministry. I have suffered a series of back problems this fall and even with therapy I find that it likes to slip off kilter at the oddest moments. Having to be careful puts limits on my activities and actions, but has made me so thankful for the otherwise good health.

I know that was a fast summary of our news, but I told you time flies :)

Happy Birthday Blessings to my dad, Momma in Heaven, Annette, Rachel, my sister, Mia, Jon,and Jenn, We love you all!!!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Legacy of Love

In honor and memory of our dear wonderful mother - Happy Birthday, Mom!!!
I know you can't see this, but there isn't a day that goes by that you aren't in our thoughts and memories. So, in remembrance of your love, legacy, and laughter, we honor you on your birthday.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Let's Walk

For awhile now God has been showing me that I need to have a closer relationship with Him. It's not that I don't want to, but that I believe I can never be close "enough", there is always room to get closer to Christ. You ask, well how do you know? Well, you know when God keeps reminding you that you haven't prayed enough or read His Word enough or church doesn't thrill you. He shows you through His Word,sermons, praise music and most of all the nudging of the Holy Spirit.
Too many times I find myself comparing myself to other people and seeing how I measure up to their "Christianity". God reminded me again that I am to measure up to Him, I am to be a reflection of Him! It doesn't matter what another person does or does NOT do, it matters what God wants ME to do or maybe NOT to do. When people look at me, do they see Christ?
Yesterday, I went to a Ladies meeting at another church and the whole theme was Walking with Jesus. Now I don't know how it is in your relationship with Christ, but when He starts working on me, He does it in many areas and facets of my day and life. He is great at weaving His truth into my day in such a way that I know He is trying to make a point. I am still in awe and wonder when He does this, and I hope I never lose that joy or become blase` to it.
I got home last night, pondering the various speakers, the fellowship, then our family time and already forgetting some of the things that God had nudged me about.
As I readied for bed I had two choices for devotions, continue reading in Ezekiel or reading in a devotional book by missionary Andy Bonikowsky in Spain. I had skimmed his book when he gave it to me and treated it much like a Reader's Digest, look at it for the good nuggets and then leave it on the shelf. I had decided about a week ago when I was getting frustrated with an online devotional that I had been using to start his book from the very beginning. I thought well ok, I will read his book instead of a chapter in my Bible reading...
Well! God was in this whole thing as usual, because all day He has been showing me that He was serious about me having a closer walk with Him, and I was already letting my life settle into it's routine. I opened the book to the lesson that I was to read next and would ya know it? It was about walking with God!!! Well, God got my attention again with a proverbial smack to the head.
"Walking with Jesus, walking every day walking all the way, Walking in with Jesus, walking with Jesus alone." "Just a closer walk with Thee, Precious Jesus is my plea, daily walking close to Thee, let it be, dear Lord, let it be."
Let's take a walk... with Jesus.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Sweet Sounds

Out of the myriad of sounds and noises that fills the cacophony of my life, I have come across two all time favorites.

1. The sound of people praying aloud at the altar in church!

2. The sound of my boy asking me to pray for him!

This is in addition to hearing God Say "I love you", and my husband uttering those same words.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011


Thank You, Lord for this quiet day
Where I can seek Your face and pray
Thank you for the Book
Where You can see my name at a look

Many thoughts run through my mind
Then I remember to think on You
And leave them all behind

It has been a long time
Since I have written poetry or rhyme
To be inspired and to bless
The years fly by with just more stress

Often I sit with shattered thoughts
Wants and desires come to naught
You pick me up and draw me close
Filling my cup when I need it most

Words are a mere attempt at expression
My heart longs to escape oppression
Your Will to be my desire
Your Way may I always aspire

Thank You, Lord for this release
May my thoughts and words of You please
Your whispered promises make me sing
A glimpse of Heaven's bells as they ring

Thank You, Lord for this quiet day
Where I can seek Your face, and pray

~RJC 8/17/11

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Family News

Good Morning Family and Friends,
For years now I have sporadically blogged our family news instead of sending out a huge email to everyone in hopes they get it. Many times I do not share the trials, only the blessings. Other times I let y'all in on every little thing. We have had alot on our hearts lately, and I thought I would share a wee bit with you who hold us dear.
Ted is still the area supervisor for the Pizza Hut franchise that he has been with for many years past and present. He has 5 stores that he supervises and oversees. His work is never ending. He has gone through a real trial lately with various things happening and would greatly appreciate any prayers you send up to our Father for help and strength.
My position at World Wide New Testament Baptist Missions encompasses a variety of tasks that keep me busy, and my mind has a hard time turning work off when I am out of the office. Keep praying for me that I will continue to be used by the Lord in this aspect of His ministry.
James graduated from high school in June, was able to earn and receive enough money to buy his own used vehicle. It needs a check up in the shop soon, but should last him for awhile. He stays busy with his job as groundskeeper for WWNTBM. We had a rough summer trying to find a way for him to go to college for this fall semester. Alot of prayer and discussion and scrambling and information seeking went on for weeks. Finally, James decided to work for a year to save enough money to go next fall. I can tell you the weight has been lifted and the peace of making a decision has been a relief. Should he have gone this fall? We didn't have peace about it either way. Now that the decision has finally been made, we ask that you pray he gets enough money and that his desire to go will be even stronger. We hope you will pray for James that he will let God use him in any way He desires.
Justin will start his senior year in high school next month. He has helped his brother and others throughout the summer with odd jobs that has helped to pay for his trips to camp and the Faith Youth Revival in TN. He strives to get closer to God and would appreciate your prayers that he will continue in a godly direction. He is seeking the Lord's will about college and a career.
I know this sounds like a huge prayer request more then a family update, but I make no apologies for it. Our family has gone through some valleys and stumbled under some heavy burdens, but our loving Heavenly Father has been right there along side of us to carry us through. Prayer is a vital aspect and necessity in our lives to get us through each day.
Thank you for loving us and most of all for praying for us.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

40th Birthday Blessings

Birthday Blessings
Instead of counting candles,
Or tallying the years,
Contemplate your blessings now,
As your birthday nears.
Consider special people
Who love you, and who care,
And others who’ve enriched your life
Just by being there.
Think about the memories
Passing years can never mar,
Experiences great and small
That have made you who you are.
Another year is a happy gift,
So cut your cake, and say,
"Instead of counting birthdays,
I count blessings every day!"
By Joanna Fuchs

I love you, Ted. Happy Blessed Birthday!

Thursday, July 28, 2011

I go to the Rock Who is higher then I

My heart is so full right now, I am not even sure how to write this post. This month has been super busy with work and camp, and the usual weekly frenzy of the spinning hamster wheel. Our church services have been amazing each and every one, and the Lord always gives me exactly what I need from His Word. Two dear men in our church are close to going Home to Heaven. In fact, one just crossed over this morning to the glorious shores of Home. I was very busy at work and tried to not think about it. This special man sat next to me nearly every service and there was a sweet bond of fellowship between us. As I sit here thinking about his impact on my life and the conversations we shared and the sadness or losing loved ones together, my heart breaks a bit more. I have been missing Momma so much this month and now with Br. Mike passing, and Br. Arnold about to step on Shore as well, I keep wondering how many more, how much longer, can I hold on? I cry out to God with no words, just a breaking heart. Yet, He brings Psalms to mind, and messages that we have just heard in recent services, and I know He is waiting for me to crawl into His lap and have a good cry and let Him comfort me.
I know His grace, I know His comfort, and I know His peace and I know He has an overwhelming abundant never ending supply. I love the Lord and His mercy to me is untold. So, I will cry my tears of goodbye for now to a special man, I will add more tears to His bottle over Momma, and I will treasure the moments we have left with Br. Arnold.... Most of all, I will go to the Rock Who is higher then I when all I feel like doing is hiding under my blanket and giving up.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Let Freedom Ring!

Statue of Liberty

In New York Harbor stands a lady,
With a torch raised to the sky;
And all who see her know she stands for
Liberty for you and me.

I'm so proud to be called an American,
To be named with the brave and the free;
I will honor our flag and our trust in God,
And the Statue of Liberty.

On lonely Golgotha stood a cross,
With my Lord raised to the sky;
And all who kneel there live forever
As all the saved can testify.

I'm so glad to be called a Christian,
To be named with the ransomed and whole;
As the statue liberates the citizen,
So the cross liberates the soul.

Oh the cross is my Statue of Liberty,
It was there that my soul was set free;
Unashamed I'll proclaim that a rugged cross
Is my Statue of Liberty!

© Words & Music by Neil Enloe

Saturday, July 2, 2011

My dog has fleas?

I was sitting here this morning, feeling the weight of the immediate world on my shoulders. Trying to grasp the victory in the valley moment I had last night to tide me through. Then, I heard my dog whimper and whine. He might have a flea or it's his summertime skin condition he suffers every year. Unfortunately, I am the one that gives him the much hated baths in an effort to help him. He knows when he is hurting that I am going to try to bathe him. He hates that! So, he would rather whimper and whine and hide away then let me help him feel better. He won't let me near him enough to find out what is causing him such discomfort.
What a spiritual lesson this was to me this morning. So many times we sit and whine and whimper and cry and scratch and bite at our hurts and discomforts because the soothing water of the Word of God or His healing touch seems more painful at the moment. We reject the process of healing because we associate it with pain.
Wow, that feels like a SELAH moment to me....
Do you have fleas?

Friday, July 1, 2011

He came all the way

John 14 is a favorite passage of Scripture lately. How I long to see my Savior's face, and yet I am in awe and trembling at the thought of that event. He came all the way to earth to die for me!! He will come and take me all the way back to Heaven to be with Him!!
Lately, many things have caused major stress in our lives here in the family. Just when I am feeling overwhelmed by it all I cry out, and God reaches over and pulls my head back above water. Thank You, Jesus for everything you do. I can't do it without You, and thankfully, I don't have to.
In the past year, God has poured immeasurable grace down on us, and now it seems He is teaching us a lesson in trust and faith. So, through this time when it seems like we are in the valley ourselves, we can see the mountains and we will keep climbing onward and upward. I do not know what the immediate future looks like, but I know Who is leading me along the way.
So let me pass along two tried and true methods of getting through the maelstrom of life and keep rowing for shore. They are God's Word and Praise music... my constant reminders that God is still victoriously in control.

Is He your Way?

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Disease Alert

In our churches,there is a terrible disease going around. It is worse than the Legionnaires'disease, worse than the swine flu, worse than the Japanese flu. It is not tonsillitis, tendonitis, appendicitis, bursitis, meningitis, or Saint Vidas. It
is none of these. It has been diagnosed as DEVILITIS. It is an cancerous epidemic in our Churches. Isaiah said, the whole body is sick.

Here are the symptoms:
See if this applies to you:


Do you say: "I am not hungry for preaching"?

You used to holler out, "Feed me, Preacher", but now you have DEVILITIS

You used to like to sing Amazing Grace, but now you got DEVILITIS


You can not testify or witness any more.


You can not see the lost, or the needs of the Church


You can not walk with God, or your fellow believers anymore


It makes you buy an NIV Bible

It makes you think that Joel Osteen or Harold Camping are of GOD

It makes you think hyper Calvinism is true


You cannot find an Independent,Fundamental,Bible believing, Christ exalting, saint edifying, sinner repenting Church for the same reason a burglar cannot find a cop.

Do you have Devilitis? Maybe the symptoms are mild, but you better take heed, once afflicted if not cured you will have a full blown case of Devilitis!

Some other names for this disease are Apathy, Laziness, lukewarm Christianity, Compromise, or Rebellion.

1 Corinthians 15:58- "Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord."

Ephesians 4:14-24 and verse 27 "That we henceforth be no more children, tossed to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the sleight of men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie in wait to deceive; But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ: From whom the whole body fitly joined together and compacted by that which every joint supplieth, according to the effectual working in the measure of every part, maketh increase of the body unto the edifying of itself in love. This I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that ye henceforth walk not as other Gentiles walk, in the vanity of their mind,Having the understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God through the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart: Who being past feeling have given themselves over unto lasciviousness, to work all uncleanness with greediness.But ye have not so learned Christ; If so be that ye have heard him, and have been taught by him, as the truth is in Jesus: That ye put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts;And be renewed in the spirit of your mind; And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness......Neither give place to the devil."

Beware of Devilitis!
(borrowed from a friend and modified)

Friday, May 20, 2011

Whispered Promises

We have embarked on a journey through some rough seas this past week. I don't know when the voyage will be over or how high the ocean swells will reach. The maelstrom seems daunting at times. I was praying last night wrestling with God and yet trying to just let Him take care of the situation. He spoke peace to me through Ron Hamilton's song "Oh Rejoice in the Lord" (He makes no mistakes)and from His Word -"Fear thou not, for I am with thee. Be not dismayed, for I am thy God. I will strengthen thee, yea, I will help thee, yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness." Isaiah 41:10. He sent me to sleep on those promises.
I awoke this morning to my favorite Hymn "It is well with my Soul" resounding on my cd player for my alarm. More whispered promises....
Today was busy and crazy, a bit more so as this situation added to the crashing waves around me. Tonight I sat here not wanting to go to bed and feeling the weight of the sea bearing down on me. I decided to click on my Bible link and see what my favorite online devotional said for today. More whispered promises... God in His Personal care for me had that devotional based on my favorite passage of Scripture - 2 Corinthians 4:7-9. I do not know why I didn't think of it before as that is what I have leaned on since high school.
I sit here in awe and wonder and near tears as I am so thankful that not only is God promising to be with me through this, but that I can see His Hand holding mine each step of the way. So many people go through life and all it's traumatic trials and never realize that God wants to walk with them through it and hold them when they can't do it on their own.
Each time I have needed something to raise me up to the crest of the wave instead of in the trough wallowing in the current, He has used various means to speak peace to my soul in the exact way that I would know it was Him and Him alone.
God never moves without purpose or plan
When trying His servant and molding a man.
Give thanks to the LORD though your testing seems long;
In darkness He giveth a song.

I could not see through the shadows ahead;
So I looked at the cross of my Savior instead.
I bowed to the will of the Master that day;
Then peace came and tears fled away.

Now I can see testing comes from above;
God strengthens His children and purges in love.
My Father knows best, and I trust in His care;
Through purging more fruit I will bear.

O Rejoice in the LORD
He makes no mistake,
He knoweth the end of each path that I take,
For when I am tried
And purified,
I shall come forth as gold.
-Ron Hamilton

It IS....

Although there is much happening right now, and I often feel like a hamster on a whirling dervish, I will only post this resounding refrain.

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

Monday, May 9, 2011

The Mad Dash

So many days I really feel as if life is rushing right past me, and I am hanging on for dear life. I keep wanting to say " Let me off this wild ride, I can barely hang on". My schedule is full of work, school, housework, bus ministry, church, grabbing precious memories with Ted, and getting ready for the big graduation event of the decade. Often I just want to slow down, find some time to daydream, stare out the window at God's beautiful creation, pore over Scripture, listen to music as it transports me to a closer fellowship with My Lord, and the list goes on. I don't think I would trade my life or my daily activities for anything because I believe I am doing exactly what God wants me to with the time He gives me. Learning to balance the idea of staying busy, and yet being still without feeling like I am foolishly idle is an ongoing dilemma.

We had a wonderful Mother's Day with many delightful moments. My deep love and appreciation to Ted and the boys for making me feel loved and special and also allowing us to open our home to extended family and have a real time of joy with Ronn and Gayle, Ken and Tammy and the girls, and Ken's parents who came in for the weekend from Colorado.

I do not have much memory of last Mother's Day, and I know I was probably just numb and full of sorrow and longing to see Momma. This year was harder for me although it was our second year of Momma being in Heaven for Mother's Day. God tenderly cares for us even as we yearn to see Him and Momma soon. We are so thankful to have Gayle in our lives, she has been an added help and blessing and her wisdom and care for us has been a soothing balm in time of need.

James took his SAT's, his senior pictures are Wednesday, next week is his senior class trip, he has 9 days of school left, his graduation gown and cap are hanging in his room, his graduation invitations are about to be printed, and boy, do I have alot of papers to grade and school administration stuff to get done. I remember praying for the rapture to take place before he was to enter kindergarten. God in His wisdom gave us more years to make memories and to live for Him. I do not know when the rapture will take place, I just know that I want us all to be there in that big graduation ceremony in the sky.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Mother's Day

To All the Mothers in our lives past and present we say "Thank You, and we love you all". My mother, Momma in Heaven, Momma Jo, Annette, Gayle, you have blessed us and loved us and cared for us and we thank God for you.
Happy Mothers Day!

Monday, May 2, 2011

Perseverance of the Saints

(Someone mentioned that I wrote this, I do not recall using these words, I can only think that it was from my devotions and I forgot to post the author.
This devotional is taken from Charles Haddon Spurgeon. I apologize for not posting the source earlier.)
"I pray not that Thou shouldst take them out of the world." — John 17:15

It is a sweet and blessed event which will occur to all believers in God's own time—the going home to be with Jesus. In a few more years the Lord's soldiers, who are now fighting "the good fight of faith" will have done with conflict, and have entered into the joy of their Lord. But although Christ prays that His people may eventually be with Him where He is, He does not ask that they may be taken at once away from this world to heaven. He wishes them to stay here. Yet how frequently does the wearied pilgrim put up the prayer, "O that I had wings like a dove! for then would I fly away and be at rest"; but Christ does not pray like that, He leaves us in His Father's hands, until, like shocks of corn fully ripe, we shall each be gathered into our Master's garner. Jesus does not plead for our instant removal by death, for to abide in the flesh is needful for others if not profitable for ourselves. He asks that we may be kept from evil, but He never asks for us to be admitted to the inheritance in glory till we are of full age. Christians often want to die when they have any trouble. Ask them why, and they tell you, "Because we would be with the Lord." We fear it is not so much because they are longing to be with the Lord, as because they desire to get rid of their troubles; else they would feel the same wish to die at other times when not under the pressure of trial. They want to go home, not so much for the Saviour's company, as to be at rest. Now it is quite right to desire to depart if we can do it in the same spirit that Paul did, because to be with Christ is far better, but the wish to escape from trouble is a selfish one. Rather let your care and wish be to glorify God by your life here as long as He pleases, even though it be in the midst of toil, and conflict, and suffering, and leave Him to say when "it is enough."

Monday, April 25, 2011

Family Flair

I do not remember the last time I did a family update. I think I did a brief one for when Ronn married Gayle. Gayle is a special lady who has become a Mom to me. She is a gift from God and I thank Him for her. She has stepped into that maternal role in the family without taking anything away from our precious Momma who went to Heaven.
March was the wedding and the uniting of another family to our rambling vine of kudzu. We welcome Mark and Amy and their boys Jordan, Luke, and Hayden. We also welcome Wayne Loving into the family although we haven't met him yet. In addition to those we are happy to also have Laura and her husband Jim and their children. We met Tim and Jennifer, but welcome the rest as well into our family and hearts. The wedding was beautiful and sweet with lots of laughter and tears. Ted and Tammy and Amy sung together "Rejoice in the Lord" (He makes NO mistakes).

We also celebrated March birthdays adding more celebrants to the month of March then we had before.

In April, we have been working overtime it seems. Schoolwork is starting to get finished up. Easter was happily celebrated with a huge family grill-out on Saturday. April birthdays were celebrated and enjoyed.
Sunday we hosted a dinner with lots of fun and drama and fatigue in between 2 amazing services at church.
Ted and I commemorated our 19th wedding anniversary yesterday as well. We so rarely get time together that we have snatched a few hours here and there. We did spend a day at a huge shopping mall together earlier in the month although we weren't sure if that was our anniversary celebration or not. Wanting and needing more time together, we are going to take a mini vacation in May to celebrate our anniversary properly. Then of course I will send Ted off fishing the end of that week. James is looking forward to going fishing with his dad as a Senior Class trip/ PE field trip.
James will be graduating from high school on June 5th at 6pm at Faith Baptist Church of Shelby, NC. We would love to have friends and family come and cheer him on as he finally finishes this great half of the race.
James works hard as the grounds keeper for World Wide New Testament Baptist Missions. He does a great job and loves working there.
Justin is finishing his junior year and hopes to find a good summer job between weeks at camp.

We are racing through this year, and looking forward to many events and milestones in our lives, but we long for that great day when we will be caught up hither to meet the Lord in the air. Are you ready for that day?

By Name

We had glorious Resurrection Day Services yesterday. The whole theme that permeated the day and in my heart was that Jesus knows me by name. He is a personal Savior. Are you close enough to Jesus that not only does He know your name, but He calls You by name? Would you know Jesus by name if He came to your house? Jesus knows each and every one of us by name, but do we hear Him call our name? Are you listening?

Exodus 33:12 (Moses) "Yet thou hast said, I know thee by name, and thou hast also found grace in my sight."

1 Chronicles 16:41 "And with them Heman and Jeduthun, and the rest that were chosen, who were expressed by name, to give thanks to the LORD, because his mercy [endureth] for ever;"

John 10:3-5 "To him the porter openeth; and the sheep hear his voice: and he calleth his own sheep by name, and leadeth them out. And when he putteth forth his own sheep, he goeth before them, and the sheep follow him: for they know his voice. And a stranger will they not follow, but will flee from him: for they know not the voice of strangers."

Have you talked with Him today??? Have you let HIM talk with you?

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Day by Day by Grace Devotional

Bob Hoekstra
April 19th
Experiencing the Lord's Goodness

Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him! (Psalm 34:8)
The Scriptures clearly declare that the knowledge of the Lord is for developing a relationship, not merely cataloging correct information about Him. Grace and peace are to be "multiplied to" us (2 Peter 1:2), not just memorized by us. "All things that pertain to life and godliness" (2 Peter 1:3) are to be drawn upon for godly living, not merely listed to validate our orthodoxy. As we get to know the Lord, His goodness is to be experienced in our lives.

Our present verse is quite forthright concerning this point. "Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good." The Lord is good. He is merciful, kind, gracious, and patient. The Scriptures abound with declarations of God's goodness. "Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever" (Psalm 107:1). This goodness of God is to be experienced by God's people. "My people shall be satisfied with My goodness" (Jeremiah 31:14). We are to "taste and see" God's goodness, not only to hear of it and talk about it.

How does a person experience the goodness of the Lord? "Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!" God's goodness is available for our personal experience whenever we trust in Him. "Oh, how great is Your goodness, which You have laid up for those who fear You, which You have prepared for those who trust in You In the presence of the sons of men!" (Psalm 31:19). When we rely upon the Lord, His goodness brings forth peace in our lives. "You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You" (Isaiah 26:3). When we depend upon the Lord, His goodness brings forth rejoicing in our lives. "Our soul waits for the LORD; He is our help and our shield. For our heart shall rejoice in Him, Because we have trusted in His holy name" (Psalm 33:20-21).

It should not be surprising to us that faith in the Lord is the pathway to experiencing His goodness. We have noted in a number of these meditations that faith is one of the relational realities that allows a child of God to live by His grace. Faith accesses grace (Romans 5:2). "The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him" (Lamentations 3:25).

We trust in the Lord the more we get acquainted with Him. We trust in the Lord the more we seek Him to demonstrate His faithfulness. "And those who know Your name will put their trust in You; For You, LORD, have not forsaken those who seek You" (Psalm 9:10).

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

From the Heart

Have I ever sent you through a valley
I had not already walked through?

Have I ever held your hand in Mine
Without walking next to you?

Have I ever set you on a mountain
Without lifting you up high?

Have I ever asked to give your all
Without being willing Myself to die?

O little child of wandering
I've been with you from the start.

When I said I'll never leave you child
I meant it with all My heart.

-Ted Corriveau 4/12/2011

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Proverbs 10

What a beautiful sun-shining day the Lord has created! I sit here during a lull, sipping creamy coffee and feeling butterflies in my stomach. This week I arranged for James to take his SAT's, started downloading and printing out his college application, pushing him to finish his last month of course work, and wondering what the Lord has in store for him. This feeling reminds me of when he was learning to walk and I knew I couldn't always hold his hand, but I always felt better if I was there to help him minimize his falls. As I meditate on this, I want to make sure I am not worrying or being anxious about his safety or his choices, although I am probably falling victim to just that.
My mind is full of thoughts and comparisons, and I think I have just an inkling of what God must feel like with His children. He teaches us over and over and shows us how to serve Him and live for Him. Yet, no matter how many school lessons we have, it does not always seem to sink into our brains and our hearts. In the end, although I would love it if my boys would and could spell correctly, use proper grammar, compute math like a calculator, and spout off historical and scientific facts, my greatest yearning is for them to be so close in their walk with the Lord that it spills out all over their lives and everyone they come in contact with.
Proverbs 10 has resonated with me lately, read it for yourself and glean from it.
My yearnings for my children should be my yearnings for myself with my Heavenly Father as well.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Going to the Chapel....

Took my Sweet Baby to the Chapel to watch God expand our family even more with love and grace.

Here is the happy couple.... ok welll....

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Kudzu Knots

Irish Wedding Blessing
May your hands be forever clasped in friendship,
And your hearts joined forever in love.
Your lives are very special,
God has touched you in many ways.
May His blessings rest upon you
And fill all your coming days.

Saturday, our Heavenly Father will turn our Kudzu vine into a family tree.
We welcome Gayle into our family and her family as ours as she marries my second father-in-law.
Our love, prayers, blessings, and thoughts are with them on this special weekend beginning the rest of their lives together.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Child of the King

The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.
Jeremiah 31:3

My Prayer: O Lord, I am so undeserving of Your love! Thank You for drawing me to You and giving me Your gift of salvation! Thank You so much, Lord, for loving me with an everlasting love. Teach me, Lord, to love others the way You love me.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Time is Short

This has been a week of reflection for me. Things have been pretty hectic and fast paced lately, and I found that it was getting in the way of my personal time with my Heavenly Father. He has gently reminded me every week that I am not spending enough real time with Him. I remember the days when all I did was talk to Him and pore of His Word. So, this week I started making a conscious effort to spend more time in His Word and just more alone time with Him. The Super Teen Class that I teach in our church's bus ministry has been doing a series on "Who is God?" I don't just want to know Who God is, but I want to KNOW Him!

Today, we heard about the major earthquake and tsunami in the Pacific region of the world. The news even stated how this was so major that it even shortened the day by a microsecond. Each major earthquake has done the same thing. We often use the phrase, "time is short" or "time is running out", but in reality it really truly is, both physically and spiritually.

Are you ready for when time will end? Driving home from work today a praise song came on the local southern gospel station, and I sat there nearly in tears as I once again remembered how Christ died for ME! The overwhelming thought of this very act was more then I could bear. He is sooo perfect and His love is so perfect that He loves me because of my imperfections. Two nights ago, Wednesday to be exact, I was riding with Ted through downtown Charlotte. On one street alone, there were churches of every brand and religion, most of them dark and empty on a night set aside traditionally for prayer and praising God. There were 2 huge churches lit and a 3rd called a Universalist Church seemed open to the public. My heart ached to see all these buildings that supposedly promote worship and they were empty or promoting their agenda. As I meditated on God's amazing gift of salvation and how we just need to have faith in Him, I was reminded how apathetic and detached the majority of the church people have become.
I am so thankful for my church where tears are welcome along with shouting and praising God, but I thought of so many others that I know personally that church is more of a routine, a tradition, a duty or a way of life minus the joy. When was the last time YOU cried at the thought of God's gift of salvation???
Where is your faith? Millions nay billions of people on this earth worship idols and false gods to the point of death, and yet we who were once lost now act like our Holy Heavenly Father is less important then our own desires and wants. It's as if once we realized we had free will we chose to accept salvation, but not exercise daily faith in Him.
These thoughts have been burning in my soul since Wednesday, God offers salvation, will you accept it? If you have accepted it, then are you running the race, fighting the fight, and exercising your faith? Millions of people will believe in idols and false gods, why is it so hard for us to have faith and serve the One and ONLY True God?
Time is short!!!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Knowing What I Know About Heaven

I bet the trumpets played,
And the angels sang every sweet refrain of Amazing Grace.
And that Heaven’s hands opened up the gate,
And the children danced when they saw your face.
As happy as they were to see you coming,
I was just as sad to have to watch you go.

Knowing what I know about Heaven,
Believing that you’re all the way home.
Knowing that you’re somewhere better,
Is all I need to let you go.
I could hope that I could pray you back,
But why on earth would I do that?
When you’re somewhere life and love never ends,
Knowing what I know about Heaven.

Where every single voice makes a joyful noise,
How sweet the sound when the saints rejoice.
To every broken heart and every wounded soul,
New life begins on streets of gold.
Where every tear is raining here from my eyes,
I know the sun is shining where you are.

Knowing what I know about Heaven,
Believing that you’re all the way home.
Knowing that you’re somewhere better,
Is all I need to let you go.
I could hope that I could pray you back,
But why on earth would I do that?
When you’re somewhere life and love never ends,
Knowing what I know about Heaven.

Monday, February 21, 2011

He Hath Said

"He hath said." — Hebrews 13:5

"If we can only grasp these words by faith, we have an all-conquering weapon in our hand. What doubt will not be slain by this two-edged sword? What fear is there which shall not fall smitten with a deadly wound before this arrow from the bow of God's covenant? Will not the distresses of life and the pangs of death; will not the corruptions within, and the snares without; will not the trials from above, and the temptations from beneath, all seem but light afflictions, when we can hide ourselves beneath the bulwark of "He hath said"? Yes; whether for delight in our quietude, or for strength in our conflict, "He hath said" must be our daily resort. And this may teach us the extreme value of searching the Scriptures. There may be a promise in the Word which would exactly fit your case, but you may not know of it, and therefore you miss its comfort. You are like prisoners in a dungeon, and there may be one key in the bunch which would unlock the door, and you might be free; but if you will not look for it, you may remain a prisoner still, though liberty is so near at hand. There may be a potent medicine in the great pharmacopoeia of Scripture, and you may yet continue sick unless you will examine and search the Scriptures to discover what "He hath said." Should you not, besides reading the Bible, store your memories richly with the promises of God? You can recollect the sayings of great men; you treasure up the verses of renowned poets; ought you not to be profound in your knowledge of the words of God, so that you may be able to quote them readily when you would solve a difficulty, or overthrow a doubt? Since "He hath said" is the source of all wisdom, and the fountain of all comfort, let it dwell in you richly, as "A well of water, springing up unto everlasting life." So shall you grow healthy, strong, and happy in the divine life."
Charles Haddon Spurgeon

Sunday, February 20, 2011

11 After 10

Noah's Ark : Everything I need to know, I learned from Noah's Ark .

ONE: Don't miss the boat.
TWO: Remember that we are all in the same boat!
THREE: Plan ahead. It wasn't raining when Noah built the Ark.
FOUR: Stay fit. When you're 60 years old, someone may ask you to do something really big.
FIVE: Don't listen to critics; just get on with the job that needs to be done.
SIX: Build your future on high ground.
SEVEN: For safety's sake, travel in pairs.
EIGHT: Speed isn't always an advantage. The snails were on board with the cheetahs.
NINE: When you're stressed, float awhile.
TEN: Remember, the Ark was built by amateurs; the Titanic by professionals.
ELEVEN: No matter the storm, when you are with God, there's always a rainbow waiting.

10 Suggestions

Someone has written these beautiful words. Read and try to understand the deep meaning of it.
They are like the ten recommendations to follow in life all the time.

1] Prayer is not a "spare wheel" that you pull out when in trouble, but it is a "steering wheel" that directs the right path throughout.

2] Notice how A Car's WINDSHIELD is so large & the Rear view Mirror is so small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, Look Ahead and Move on.

3] Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes years to write.

4] All things in life are temporary. If going well enjoy it, they will not last forever. If going wrong don't worry, they can't last long either.

5] Old Friends are Gold! New Friends are Diamond! If you get a Diamond, don't forget the Gold! Because to hold a Diamond, you always need a Base of Gold!

6] Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from above and says, "Relax, sweetheart, it's just a bend, not the end!

7] When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities; when GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities.

8] A blind person asked a religious man : "Can there be anything worse than losing eye sight?" He replied: "Yes, losing your vision!"

9] When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has prayed for you.

10] WORRYING does not take away tomorrow's TROUBLES; it takes away today's PEACE.
If you really enjoy this, PLEASE pass to others. It may brighten someone's day...

Friday, February 18, 2011

Irish Blessing

Remembered Joy
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free!
I follow the plan God laid for me.
I saw His face, I heard His call,
I took His hand and left it all...
I could not stay another day,
To love, to laugh, to work or play;
Tasks left undone must stay that way.
And if my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss...
Ah yes, these things I, too, shall miss.
My life's been full, I've savoured much:
Good times, good friends, a loved-one's touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief—
Don't shorten yours with undue grief.
Be not burdened with tears of sorrow,
Enjoy the sunshine of the morrow.

Found this Irish Blessing that spoke to me... I miss Momma, but I know that I need to see the sunshine through the clouds, and Trust God to give me the strength to continue serving Him til He comes.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Melancholy Moment

As I sit here on this chilly Wednesday night, my thoughts are meandering through my mind as if they were window shopping. I grab a thought, look at it, and move on without dwelling on any one thing in particular for more then a second or two. Ted's job remains stressful, but I trust God to keep him close and see him through. Even though we rarely see each other anymore, the time we do spend together has been heightened in quality and has become even more precious to me. I thank God every day for the man He gave me to be the leader of my home and the holder of my heart.

I dreamed about Momma again last night. Even in the dream I was conscious of the fact that she wasn't supposed to be in that storyline, and so I spoke up and told her I needed a hug. I knew I would only be able to get it in my dream, but I treasure the memory of Momma's hugs. Tonight the teen ensemble sang my favorite hymn "It is well with my soul".... that has become my theme song for these past years, and I thrill each time I hear the song sung from the heart. Then a song was sung about believing in Heaven and Calvary, but it had a line about watching a loved one die, and I just wanted to bawl. So many people are hurting, going through surgeries, getting sick, saying good bye to loved heart aches to help them all, and I do not have the means to even do anything.
As this started to weigh on me tonight, I felt so burdened and weighted down by the immediate that I lost track of the permanent- my eternal goal.
I need to grasp my theme song and sing it loud and clear. I am about to paste the words to share with all of you and noticed that the site I got it from has stanzas I have never heard before. Thank you Lord for giving me Peace that passeth all understanding!

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But, Lord, ‘tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh trump of the angel! Oh voice of the Lord!
Blessèd hope, blessèd rest of my soul!

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Be Still and KNOW

This month has been full of valleys and very few mountains. Ted's job has been overloaded with stressful events. His stress bleeds off onto me, even though he tries to protect us from it. Prayer warriors have gathered and have prayed us through the hard times. The comfort and strength that comes from a blanket of prayer is incomparable. My work position might be changing, and I found that to be weighing on me.
God gave me a verse Thursday night that helped me keep things in perspective.
Psalm 131:1-3 " LORD, my heart is not haughty, nor mine eyes lofty: neither do I exercise myself in great matters, or in things too high for me. Surely I have behaved and quieted myself, as a child that is weaned of his mother: my soul is even as a weaned child. Let Israel hope in the LORD from henceforth and for ever." I can rest and be quiet in the Lord and let Him take care of it, instead of being an impatient fussy baby that can't be satisfied or content. If my hope is in the Lord, then I really need to let Him handle it, since it's very obvious I can't.
So every time I start feeling that overwhelming sense of stress and burden and feel like screaming, I remember that I am no longer a infant in the Lord. I need to take Him at His Word, trust in Him, and quiet myself.

He came to my desk with a quivering lip.
The lesson was done.
"Dear teacher, I want a new page," he said,
I have spoiled this one."

I took the old page, torn and blotted,
And gave him a new one, all unspotted,
And into his sad eyes smiled:
"Do better now, my child."

I came to God's throne with a trembling heart.
The year's work was done.
"Dear Father, I want a new life," I said,
"I have spoiled this one."

He took my old life, torn and blotted,
And gave me a new one, all unspotted,
And into my sad heart smiled:
"Do better now, my child."
"A New Leaf" by Kathleen Wheeler

Monday, January 24, 2011

From Child to Adult

What makes a child become an adult? Is it automatic when you go from 17 to 18? What happens when you are in a different culture and the age of maturity is 13 or in times past 21? Many people age, but never actually grow up. Many thoughts like these have gone through my mind since this weekend. Our eldest turned 18 this past Saturday. I will have to pull out the Selective Service registration form, introduce him to an election ballot, get his permanent unrestricted driver's license, order a class ring, diploma, cap and gown, and start filling out college applications, grant forms, and a myriad of many other things that signify adulthood.
In the midst of all these often stress filled activities, I am yearning for him to just grow closer to our Precious Lord, and to find God's perfect will for his life. This has been a journey that feels like it started longer then 18 years ago. In essence it did, it started when at the age of 4 I gave my heart and life to Jesus and yearned to be His obedient child. As I became an adult and then a wife and mother, my greatest desire was for my children to have that same close walk with the Lord.
James has been my right hand man, my boy giant, my student, my child, my buddy... Now as the next chapter is waiting to be written in this travelogue through life, I yearn for him to be God's child, His servant, His ambassador, His reflection.....
I feel old, and yet still young, scared that I didn't do enough, yet hopeful that everything instilled in him will come to fruition.
It is a very strange feeling to see your child become a man, and to pray all the more that he will be found faithful.
Happy Birthday, James!
2 John 1:4